I’m sitting watching the majestic Federer play tennis at Wimbledon. The butterflies are fluttering outside on a beautiful summer’s day and they’re also fluttering inside my stomach at the moment.
The reason? I have an appointment for a head MRI scan on Friday and to be truthful I’m feeling nervous. I feel well apart from a cold and chesty cough.
Oral Chemo treatment is progressing with few problems and apparently I look well according to public opinion. Still I’m nervous.
It’s been three months since gamma knife treatment so the success of that procedure needs checking as does the growth of any more tumours. This is what is giving me butterflies!
They were dark days and I don’t want to go back there. However I must deal with whatever I find which takes me back to my first blog post and the poem Invictus.
I have to ‘keep faith’ as they say. I must remain positive and go with how I’m feeling – and that is good.
My family and friends are wonderful – so supportive, so hopeful, looking forward to the future with realism yet optimistically. I have to keep strong for them.
I’ve never had a bucket list. I’m not organised enough for one but if I were to have one, at the top of my list would be children and grandchildren-related goals. I’m no different from many, many other people. Love for family is all.
So I write this as King Roger is being tested. He has learned to deal with tricky situations and so must I.
Flutter by Butterfly!
Momma B's blog of hope 
We feel it cos you feel it mum, we’re all in this together and have been right from the beginning. Whatever happens we will always be here for you and each other. You have taught us to love, think positively and be strong and that’s what we’ll continue to do. 💚
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You are a beautiful butterfly. One of the strongest nicest ladies I have ever met. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Keep strong. Much love xxx
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Another beautiful blog post from a beautiful person. We’re always here for you Mum. 💚🦋
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Pauline you look so well, I have a positive feeling in my gut that all is going just as it should. I will of course keep having a little pray too. Keep strong beautiful lady. God bless you.
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Hope all goes well for you I am sure it will all prayers and thoughts are with you you are a special lady if you fancy lunch one day Carol and I and ladies from church would love to take you out just let me know God bless xx
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I think about you often and love to read your blog. Sending love. X
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Love this post Pauline. The line “I have to keep strong for them” is something I’ve heard from Paula, and see in her actions daily in all that she does, and I’m sure you’re exactly the same. To continue the sporty theme, the game you’re playing is a most challenging one, but all those around you are playing for the same team, your team. keeping strong together, for each other. We have to, it’s what families do x
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Been thinking of you this morning and sending positive vibes xxx
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