Dealing with potholes

Another beautiful day again today and the wind had dropped – but so has my mood!

I’ve had a buoyant few weeks of positivity, but woke up early today with dark thoughts.

The visit to the hospital on Wednesday was long but not troublesome – just waiting for blood results, calcium results, meds from pharmacy etc.

Thank goodness the service is there for me to access. I’ve had one cycle of this new drug and seem to have tolerated it quite well, though my white blood cell count dipped very low. I’m hoping that it picked up again before I began  a new cycle.

What is daunting is that this is my life now for as long as. There are some very strong people out there dealing with tough situations who put me to shame. I wonder how they deal with their ‘pot holes’?

Perhaps when approaching they see them and swerve or side step to avoid them. I need to find a new tactic so I don’t allow myself to hit them.

Distraction until I have passed it is a possibility. Acceptance that potholes are there so move carefully is another. Take the bump and move on is yet another.

It won’t be long before another MRI scan is taken to see what’s happening in my brain. This has been on my mind a lot recently, so perhaps that’s the pothole.  I cannot avoid it so I must approach it  but do so with caution and hope.

Now I will “look at the birds in the sky. They do not sow or reap or gather into barns yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they are?” Take heed of Matthew’s Gospel, Pauline!  Trust and hope! 💚