These jottings of mine always seem to appear at a ‘crisis’ time and here I go again.
Tomorrow is scan day for both brain and body. It doesn’t seem three months ago since my last scans which showed quite positive results. Even so I’m still nervous imagining anything and everything.
I listened to Melvyn Bragg this morning as he discussed ‘hope’ with his academic guests. Not all philosophers believe that the concept of hope is a good thing, a productive idea.
Having been raised as a Christian I believe that hope is one of the important tenets of my faith. Aristotle believed that: “Hope is the dream of the waking man”.
Not particularly helpful to me. I need it to be more than that. Just now I hope that modern medicine and professional expertise are working together to keep me well for a while longer, but I have to be realistic enough to know that this might not be the case.
And here is where family and friends come in who believe in prayer. Please pray the Serenity prayer for me when you have a minute.

When I have news at the beginning of December I shall post again. Until then I will keep hope safe.
Pauline
Thinking about you xx 😘
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So very proud that you are my Mum I love you to the moon and back 💚
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Love you Mum. You have us all behind you 💚💚 you’re doing amazingly well we are all so proud of you xxxx
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Hi Pauline hope all goes well for you thinking of you and prayers are being said you are doing so well see you on the 28th xx
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Pauline we are all praying every day. I know you are feeling anxious but please try and relax a bit. Worrying never changes anything, but the adrenalin it gets going just makes everything feel worse. Breathe your body and mind into a better place. If I can help just let me know.
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We will be thinking about you as always x x 💚
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Hello Pauline
Of course, I will pray the serenity prayer for you and think of you especially, when you are having your scan.
Lots of love and a big cwtch
Lucy x
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