A year ago today, 27 February 2018, in A&E I was told I had brain tumours and that they were secondaries.
As my first blog post said I didn’t want to speak about it. This was partly a result of shock but also my non acceptance of the situation.
12 months have passed. 4 full body scans, 4 brain scans, 2 lots of brain radiotherapy, 11 abdominal injections and 11 months of oral chemotherapy and I am still struggling to completely accept that I have incurable cancer.
Today even at my appointment I asked why it was incurable though I knew the answer. I was hoping for a contradiction.
I should be thankful that a year has passed and I have been able to carry on as normal. I keep reminding myself that there are hundreds of thousands of people who live with other incurable illnesses including family members, but they don’t wallow in their situation. They adapt to it and get on with life.
I have been saying the Serenity Prayer repeatedly to remind myself that acceptance together with courage and determination are the better part.
Once again I thank you all for your healing prayers and thoughts. They will I am sure keep me strong and resolute. Here’s to another positive year!
Pauline
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Our love and prayers are with you always Pauline. A year of procedures and medication have managed your illness and you have coped so well with everything. You are one strong lady.
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Will continue to pray for you God bless you lovely lady xx
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Here’s to a positive fair few years.xxx
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Love you Mum, your strength and positivity inspire me. I think you’re incredible. I appreciate the special person you are more than ever now.
Living with the knowledge of the incurable nature of the illness must be a tough burden to have. However, you are living! Very much so! Keep doing what you’re doing you special soul ❤️
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